Extremely glad that they are finally over! However, am quite certain I would have attained a supplementary paper in one of the modules - Productivity Management.
Not sure if it's just me, or everyone else in the class who hated this module. The lecturer wasn't too great to begin with, although he is a Doctor. Sure, every lecturer has his/her own style of teaching; but unfortunately his methods don't work for our class. The one thing Dr Lim said that was imprinted deeply into my mind is, "You can sacrifice sleep for now, and sleep next time coz you will then be able to sleep for good and never wake up."
Honestly, which working adult who attends part-time courses, doesn't sleep very little hours? For myself, with Rianne around, my sleep is so much more compromised as I have to ensure that Rianne goes to bed before I can take my rest. This can sometimes be as late as past midnight, if Rianne is too hyped up and refuse to sleep.
Anyway, I am almost completing my studies. One more module to retake (I dropped it during my final trimester in my pregnancy), the MAP project and the supplementary paper (hopefully paper, and not papers). Would love to take it further with an advanced diploma program or degree. But not so soon..
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
Sympathy.. Do you deserve it?
I really hate to sound like a heartless, vicious and unsympathetic bitch.. but think about it, if I am not as strong as I am today, my whole family would have starved to death, and I probably would have killed my offspring even before I could give birth to it..
I must re-emphasize this - I have never regretted giving birth to my daughter, whom most of you would agree with me, is a hard-not-to-dote darling. I have also never felt unwilling to become a single mother, and have a complicated marital status.
All these purely because I am a strong individual, who was brought up to survive in hardships; and stand up to lead the pack. In fact, at the age of 10, I was already taking care of my two younger siblings whilst being a kid myself who needs to be cared for too. I had to teach, feed and stay united with my little sister and baby brother, because our parents were undergoing a divorce and they both hated to be around each other.
Maybe because of my childhood, I always detest weaklings who fall weak to their knees at any tiny setback. I am a girl, and if I can take any 'wave' that comes hitting me; I expect a guy to be able to face the music too, or not, do it even better than me.
It is obvious to anyone, boy or girl, that childbirth is probably the most noble thing a woman would do for another living thing. For some, childbirth brings the most excruciating pain they have ever experienced, and for some unfortunate others, it may turned to be the most trumatising, and devasting chapter of their life.
I did not have an easy pregnancy, and it even became life-threatening at the last stage! I was lucky to have pulled through, and my baby was born prematurely and needed to be kept at the Special Care Nursery for a whole week after birth. This was hard for a postnatal mother, to be separated from her newborn that soon. And did I mention costs? Imagine the kind of hospital costs a single mother has to bear without any financial assistance from anybody; not even from the father of the child.
The purpose of me saying these now, isn't claiming credit for what I have done. It is what I am supposed to do, and doing it with whatever means it needs me to. I cannot picture what would happen to a baby if the parent has not got the capacity to provide for it, but yet choose to bring him/her into this world. Many young people, I believe are guilty of it..
You may be terribly ill or totally unfit to work, but life still goes on for everyone around you. If you have a baby, you would have to feed him/her regardless of the kind of situation the adults are in. They get hungry, sleepy and wet themselves, just like how they would every other day. It applies even to the sick person. Being sick doesn't make you less dependent on food and the basic necessities. Maybe you might use less of makeup and fashion items; but, you would still need to get on with each day of your life. And doing that, it means you need to have money.
For the adults, it's easier to scrimp on stuff and probably eat simple so as to reduce costs. However, for a growing baby who needs to be fed and changed, just about as soon as we started talking and finished, expenses are incurred like a flash.
It has been tough for me, really hard to bring up Rianne all by myself. And with Rianne's daddy denying that he have never said he wouldn't take care of us, doesn't make it any easier. What is practical to me, is the financial support. Taking care of a baby isn't feeding him/her any piece of food that you can find off the garage bin, or leaving the baby to starve for days and maybe he/she will forget they are hungry. It is money, the monetary capacity to provide for it..
I must re-emphasize this - I have never regretted giving birth to my daughter, whom most of you would agree with me, is a hard-not-to-dote darling. I have also never felt unwilling to become a single mother, and have a complicated marital status.
All these purely because I am a strong individual, who was brought up to survive in hardships; and stand up to lead the pack. In fact, at the age of 10, I was already taking care of my two younger siblings whilst being a kid myself who needs to be cared for too. I had to teach, feed and stay united with my little sister and baby brother, because our parents were undergoing a divorce and they both hated to be around each other.
Maybe because of my childhood, I always detest weaklings who fall weak to their knees at any tiny setback. I am a girl, and if I can take any 'wave' that comes hitting me; I expect a guy to be able to face the music too, or not, do it even better than me.
It is obvious to anyone, boy or girl, that childbirth is probably the most noble thing a woman would do for another living thing. For some, childbirth brings the most excruciating pain they have ever experienced, and for some unfortunate others, it may turned to be the most trumatising, and devasting chapter of their life.
I did not have an easy pregnancy, and it even became life-threatening at the last stage! I was lucky to have pulled through, and my baby was born prematurely and needed to be kept at the Special Care Nursery for a whole week after birth. This was hard for a postnatal mother, to be separated from her newborn that soon. And did I mention costs? Imagine the kind of hospital costs a single mother has to bear without any financial assistance from anybody; not even from the father of the child.
The purpose of me saying these now, isn't claiming credit for what I have done. It is what I am supposed to do, and doing it with whatever means it needs me to. I cannot picture what would happen to a baby if the parent has not got the capacity to provide for it, but yet choose to bring him/her into this world. Many young people, I believe are guilty of it..
You may be terribly ill or totally unfit to work, but life still goes on for everyone around you. If you have a baby, you would have to feed him/her regardless of the kind of situation the adults are in. They get hungry, sleepy and wet themselves, just like how they would every other day. It applies even to the sick person. Being sick doesn't make you less dependent on food and the basic necessities. Maybe you might use less of makeup and fashion items; but, you would still need to get on with each day of your life. And doing that, it means you need to have money.
For the adults, it's easier to scrimp on stuff and probably eat simple so as to reduce costs. However, for a growing baby who needs to be fed and changed, just about as soon as we started talking and finished, expenses are incurred like a flash.
It has been tough for me, really hard to bring up Rianne all by myself. And with Rianne's daddy denying that he have never said he wouldn't take care of us, doesn't make it any easier. What is practical to me, is the financial support. Taking care of a baby isn't feeding him/her any piece of food that you can find off the garage bin, or leaving the baby to starve for days and maybe he/she will forget they are hungry. It is money, the monetary capacity to provide for it..
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