A woman's worth

I am never the sort of girl who resigns herself to fate, and believe that everyone else in her life, usually husband & child, would be the most important people, and they would only be her top priorities.

No, I am not a female chauvinist. But I strongly believe that everyone deserve to have their own happiness, even a wife or a mother. A woman is not born to serve anyone, and she should not be talked into believing that her husband, children & in-laws are the superior beings and that she has to slog her guts out for them. Get a maid if they need someone like that!!

Although I have no husband nor in-laws, I am very much deprived of my happiness at this point of time. For Rianne, I must be prepared that there is no possibility of getting my happiness from a guy, unless this person is able to accept my princess, who is just like a part of me. Well, I don't necessarily mean happiness from a marriage, not my kind of thing. However, this happiness can simply be like companionship.. like someone whom I can go for dinner with, talk on the phone with, go to the movies with, and laugh together with.

I don't think a single mum yearning for these means she's a promiscious woman. She's not betraying anybody here, nor is it morally wrong of her to be seen together with a guy, who's equally unmarried..

It has been 3 years since I last knew a guy and had feelings. Honestly, it isn't really a big deal. But when the opportunity comes knocking at my door, should I jump and grab my potential happiness, or should I just let it go coz I would never be able to convince people that I deserve happiness too??

Time after time..

Pls don't take this little hearted title to be something retro-delic, or something funny. I so much hope this is all a joke, but unfortunately it isn't. The truth's gonna hit us - my family, again, on Friday.

All of us would have heard of the saying "once bitten, twice shy", and fully understand the interpretion of it means one would never repeat a same course of actions, if the person had experienced the consequence (usually very bad) from it the very first time.

I just can't fathom why my brother isn't a believer of this saying! He jolly well knows what the consequences are, if he breaks the law again and he simply chose to take that action, time after time again.. Barely out from the prison 6 months, and he is on his way back inside again!

Honestly, I don't have much empathy for this brother of mine; although everyone who knows me is aware of how much I dote on the youngest in my family. I guess I am more disappointed than upset at this point of time. I just hate to think of how heart-broken my mum will be (she always will be), how pitiful Joaquin will become, and how much trouble it will all mean for me. Don't tell me these thoughts have never ever crossed my brother's mind? Well, if they didn't, maybe some time inside a confined area will help clear his mind and he might eventually recall those consequences?

Not sure if the judge's going to show any leniency towards a repeated offender. But I suggest, don't pin too much hopes. Maybe some people need to learn through the hard way, or maybe some never will...