Does everyone agree that Fate and Love goes hand in hand? Forget that it may sound a little corny, but seriously isn't both of them a catalyst, and a driving force for each other to happen?
To be frank, I am not sure why am I saying all these now. Maybe I am just a poor soul who hasn't got any luck with Fate nor Love, and so when suddenly they come knocking on my door; I get myself into a whirlpool of confusion..
I am pretty sure it was Fate that brought me and him together, to be aquainted. He wasn't even the person who walked and talked to me first. Neither was he the first person in the group who asked me for my number. But somehow, we both connected to each other that night.
Can you imagine how sucky it feels to not be able to go out with the one person you really wish to be with? That was exactly what happened after Fate. I felt unlucky again for the longest time, until Fate threw us another chance.
I had to go to Bali for a team conference, and although I didn't get the most of what Fate could have brought me; I am still thankful. It was only through this trip that I felt Fate has been a little kinder to me now, by creating the absence between me and him so that I realise the meaning of "absence makes the heart grows fonder".
So, where exactly is Fate bringing us to now? I don't know, and I don't wish to know.. :) It feels so amazing, and I am confident that it doesn't only happen in my little organ called heart.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
ER
Seriously, I would even stay up to watch my fave TV series, ER, if it is only showing at 2am every night. Don't know if you remember the popular series in the mid 90s, with the set in a hospital emergency room. Maybe you might remember the drool-worthy Dr Doug Ross, played by George Clooney? Or the delicious Croatian Goran Visnjic, as Dr Luka Kovac? ;p
If all the above doesn't ring a bell to you, then you are probably someone like me who truly enjoyed the emotional rollercoaster ride the story plot brings with every episode. From exciting to mundane, and joyous to heart-rending. Every tale, every patient in the emergency room, will often without you realising, bring you into the story and get you so emotional. I am not even bragging, but it can definitely get the toughest person weeping like a baby..
Let me give you an example, in one episode, there was a couple who were travelling in Chicago before the wife could not travel anymore, as she was going to be in her third trimester soon. But who knows, the flight & travelling actually cost her baby's life. Her baby at gastational age of 24 weeks were forced to be delivered, and the poor soul only lived for 9hrs before passing away. During the short time of his life, the parents stayed with him throughout. Took pictures, named him and even had him baptized in the presence of a priest. How saddening isn't it.. I was sobbing the whole time in the 1 hour episode!!
Well, I think the best way for me to get back my sleep (now ER shows at 1am, Mondays to Thursdays) is probably to get the dvds and catch the series at my most convenient time. Will go hunt down the complete Season 7, and maybe if I can get them cheap, the other Seasons as well.. can never get enough of them.. heeheehee!!
If all the above doesn't ring a bell to you, then you are probably someone like me who truly enjoyed the emotional rollercoaster ride the story plot brings with every episode. From exciting to mundane, and joyous to heart-rending. Every tale, every patient in the emergency room, will often without you realising, bring you into the story and get you so emotional. I am not even bragging, but it can definitely get the toughest person weeping like a baby..
Let me give you an example, in one episode, there was a couple who were travelling in Chicago before the wife could not travel anymore, as she was going to be in her third trimester soon. But who knows, the flight & travelling actually cost her baby's life. Her baby at gastational age of 24 weeks were forced to be delivered, and the poor soul only lived for 9hrs before passing away. During the short time of his life, the parents stayed with him throughout. Took pictures, named him and even had him baptized in the presence of a priest. How saddening isn't it.. I was sobbing the whole time in the 1 hour episode!!
Well, I think the best way for me to get back my sleep (now ER shows at 1am, Mondays to Thursdays) is probably to get the dvds and catch the series at my most convenient time. Will go hunt down the complete Season 7, and maybe if I can get them cheap, the other Seasons as well.. can never get enough of them.. heeheehee!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
VS & Modelling
A lady who was behind us on the travellator yesterday, suggested that we should bring Rianne to participate in a baby contest that's happening in June.
Although I would occasionally dream of being a superstar mum, I hardly think that Rianne is a high potential in baby competitions.. maybe due to the lack of skillsets, especially motor skills which I deem would be the top judging criteria. Therefore, I thought why don't I look at other areas which Rianne may be good in, and perhaps groom her in that direction?
Without a doubt, Rianne has got the looks at a tender age. After viewing some amazing pictures of her cousin, Molly, on Facebook, I was so inspired to have Rianne's beauty captured on fillm too. I went surfing the net for professional baby photographers, and many of them have done some really great work.. however those were at really high cost as well.
Finally, this one photographer caught my eye with her "oh-so-adorable" baby pictures and to my surprise, her charges ain't expensive at all! (All you mamas should check out the site : http://www.helenbabyphoto.com/) Needless to say, Rianne was very soon booked for her photography session on the coming Vesak Day holiday!
The location for the photoshoot was at the Grandeur 8 condo at Ang Mo Kio, home to photographer, Helen Chai & her family. We were greeted at the door with a warm Taiwanese welcome by Helen & her husband, and at that point, all the uncertainity and doubts that I once harboured, were almost non-existent at that very instant!
The photography package that I took up, meant to last for only 1 hour. But Helen was so loving her little model that the whole session ended almost 2 hours later! It felt a little like getting ready for a fashion runway show, as Rianne was practically changing clothes every 15 - 20 minutes! Me & Rianne's granny were having so much fun dressing her up, and our little angel was basking in the joy of posing for the camera! We, too had a taste of modelling with a few shots taken together with Rianne..
We were promised the photographs from the session 5 days later. But before they were sent to me, I was again dreaming of my pretty princess one day being on the runway.. as a Victoria's Secret model. Hah yes, Victoria's Secret.. ;p my baby girl, the angelic face with the bod that every girl would yearn to have, and be VS worthy! See the 2010 VS Runway Show here if you missed it on TV last week.
Although I would occasionally dream of being a superstar mum, I hardly think that Rianne is a high potential in baby competitions.. maybe due to the lack of skillsets, especially motor skills which I deem would be the top judging criteria. Therefore, I thought why don't I look at other areas which Rianne may be good in, and perhaps groom her in that direction?
Without a doubt, Rianne has got the looks at a tender age. After viewing some amazing pictures of her cousin, Molly, on Facebook, I was so inspired to have Rianne's beauty captured on fillm too. I went surfing the net for professional baby photographers, and many of them have done some really great work.. however those were at really high cost as well.
Finally, this one photographer caught my eye with her "oh-so-adorable" baby pictures and to my surprise, her charges ain't expensive at all! (All you mamas should check out the site : http://www.helenbabyphoto.com/) Needless to say, Rianne was very soon booked for her photography session on the coming Vesak Day holiday!
The location for the photoshoot was at the Grandeur 8 condo at Ang Mo Kio, home to photographer, Helen Chai & her family. We were greeted at the door with a warm Taiwanese welcome by Helen & her husband, and at that point, all the uncertainity and doubts that I once harboured, were almost non-existent at that very instant!
The photography package that I took up, meant to last for only 1 hour. But Helen was so loving her little model that the whole session ended almost 2 hours later! It felt a little like getting ready for a fashion runway show, as Rianne was practically changing clothes every 15 - 20 minutes! Me & Rianne's granny were having so much fun dressing her up, and our little angel was basking in the joy of posing for the camera! We, too had a taste of modelling with a few shots taken together with Rianne..
We were promised the photographs from the session 5 days later. But before they were sent to me, I was again dreaming of my pretty princess one day being on the runway.. as a Victoria's Secret model. Hah yes, Victoria's Secret.. ;p my baby girl, the angelic face with the bod that every girl would yearn to have, and be VS worthy! See the 2010 VS Runway Show here if you missed it on TV last week.
Monday, May 24, 2010
A woman's worth
I am never the sort of girl who resigns herself to fate, and believe that everyone else in her life, usually husband & child, would be the most important people, and they would only be her top priorities.
No, I am not a female chauvinist. But I strongly believe that everyone deserve to have their own happiness, even a wife or a mother. A woman is not born to serve anyone, and she should not be talked into believing that her husband, children & in-laws are the superior beings and that she has to slog her guts out for them. Get a maid if they need someone like that!!
Although I have no husband nor in-laws, I am very much deprived of my happiness at this point of time. For Rianne, I must be prepared that there is no possibility of getting my happiness from a guy, unless this person is able to accept my princess, who is just like a part of me. Well, I don't necessarily mean happiness from a marriage, not my kind of thing. However, this happiness can simply be like companionship.. like someone whom I can go for dinner with, talk on the phone with, go to the movies with, and laugh together with.
I don't think a single mum yearning for these means she's a promiscious woman. She's not betraying anybody here, nor is it morally wrong of her to be seen together with a guy, who's equally unmarried..
It has been 3 years since I last knew a guy and had feelings. Honestly, it isn't really a big deal. But when the opportunity comes knocking at my door, should I jump and grab my potential happiness, or should I just let it go coz I would never be able to convince people that I deserve happiness too??
No, I am not a female chauvinist. But I strongly believe that everyone deserve to have their own happiness, even a wife or a mother. A woman is not born to serve anyone, and she should not be talked into believing that her husband, children & in-laws are the superior beings and that she has to slog her guts out for them. Get a maid if they need someone like that!!
Although I have no husband nor in-laws, I am very much deprived of my happiness at this point of time. For Rianne, I must be prepared that there is no possibility of getting my happiness from a guy, unless this person is able to accept my princess, who is just like a part of me. Well, I don't necessarily mean happiness from a marriage, not my kind of thing. However, this happiness can simply be like companionship.. like someone whom I can go for dinner with, talk on the phone with, go to the movies with, and laugh together with.
I don't think a single mum yearning for these means she's a promiscious woman. She's not betraying anybody here, nor is it morally wrong of her to be seen together with a guy, who's equally unmarried..
It has been 3 years since I last knew a guy and had feelings. Honestly, it isn't really a big deal. But when the opportunity comes knocking at my door, should I jump and grab my potential happiness, or should I just let it go coz I would never be able to convince people that I deserve happiness too??
Monday, May 10, 2010
Time after time..
Pls don't take this little hearted title to be something retro-delic, or something funny. I so much hope this is all a joke, but unfortunately it isn't. The truth's gonna hit us - my family, again, on Friday.
All of us would have heard of the saying "once bitten, twice shy", and fully understand the interpretion of it means one would never repeat a same course of actions, if the person had experienced the consequence (usually very bad) from it the very first time.
I just can't fathom why my brother isn't a believer of this saying! He jolly well knows what the consequences are, if he breaks the law again and he simply chose to take that action, time after time again.. Barely out from the prison 6 months, and he is on his way back inside again!
Honestly, I don't have much empathy for this brother of mine; although everyone who knows me is aware of how much I dote on the youngest in my family. I guess I am more disappointed than upset at this point of time. I just hate to think of how heart-broken my mum will be (she always will be), how pitiful Joaquin will become, and how much trouble it will all mean for me. Don't tell me these thoughts have never ever crossed my brother's mind? Well, if they didn't, maybe some time inside a confined area will help clear his mind and he might eventually recall those consequences?
Not sure if the judge's going to show any leniency towards a repeated offender. But I suggest, don't pin too much hopes. Maybe some people need to learn through the hard way, or maybe some never will...
All of us would have heard of the saying "once bitten, twice shy", and fully understand the interpretion of it means one would never repeat a same course of actions, if the person had experienced the consequence (usually very bad) from it the very first time.
I just can't fathom why my brother isn't a believer of this saying! He jolly well knows what the consequences are, if he breaks the law again and he simply chose to take that action, time after time again.. Barely out from the prison 6 months, and he is on his way back inside again!
Honestly, I don't have much empathy for this brother of mine; although everyone who knows me is aware of how much I dote on the youngest in my family. I guess I am more disappointed than upset at this point of time. I just hate to think of how heart-broken my mum will be (she always will be), how pitiful Joaquin will become, and how much trouble it will all mean for me. Don't tell me these thoughts have never ever crossed my brother's mind? Well, if they didn't, maybe some time inside a confined area will help clear his mind and he might eventually recall those consequences?
Not sure if the judge's going to show any leniency towards a repeated offender. But I suggest, don't pin too much hopes. Maybe some people need to learn through the hard way, or maybe some never will...
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Those sick-ening days..
What do you get with a sick caregiver, and an equally sick and whinny baby? A super distressed single mum, who's about to lose her mind any minute now!!!
Rianne has had a cough for the longest time ever. We brought her thrice to the doctor, 2 different doctors in fact. I actually wanted to send Rianne to the hospital directly, but my mum was influencing me with tales of the heart-wrecking treatment methods the hospital was likely to administer.
The last time Rianne had a high fever, we went through the same process of consulting several GPs; and fed her with so many types of medicine; but eventually the hospital's treatment worked.
It was very painful watching the unwell Rianne in misery. She would cough and cough, get so breathless and her phlegm would never be able to come out from her little throat. Annie Mummy would pat continuously on Rianne's chest when she starts coughing, and she would even turn her upside down so that her phlegm would fall out easier. However, all these were the largest discomfort to Rianne, and she would be wailing her guts out instead of getting the phlegm out.
Being the only well person among us means that I am supposed physically stronger, and able to carry out more duties, like fetching Rianne's medicine & syringe, getting ready the vomit bucket in case Rianne threw up. No one truly understand how stressful it was for me, helplessly watching my daughter in pain..
Things got worse when I have to fulfill my job responsibility at the same time. I wasn't able to be at home for both Rianne & my mum, and that sucks! I hated myself for being an useless mum, one who can't even give up work for my child. I knew that if something were to happen to Rianne, I would never forgive myself.
With my work (payroll processing) finally done, I took a few days leave to care for the most important people in my life - my mum & Rianne.
Rianne has had a cough for the longest time ever. We brought her thrice to the doctor, 2 different doctors in fact. I actually wanted to send Rianne to the hospital directly, but my mum was influencing me with tales of the heart-wrecking treatment methods the hospital was likely to administer.
The last time Rianne had a high fever, we went through the same process of consulting several GPs; and fed her with so many types of medicine; but eventually the hospital's treatment worked.
It was very painful watching the unwell Rianne in misery. She would cough and cough, get so breathless and her phlegm would never be able to come out from her little throat. Annie Mummy would pat continuously on Rianne's chest when she starts coughing, and she would even turn her upside down so that her phlegm would fall out easier. However, all these were the largest discomfort to Rianne, and she would be wailing her guts out instead of getting the phlegm out.
Being the only well person among us means that I am supposed physically stronger, and able to carry out more duties, like fetching Rianne's medicine & syringe, getting ready the vomit bucket in case Rianne threw up. No one truly understand how stressful it was for me, helplessly watching my daughter in pain..
Things got worse when I have to fulfill my job responsibility at the same time. I wasn't able to be at home for both Rianne & my mum, and that sucks! I hated myself for being an useless mum, one who can't even give up work for my child. I knew that if something were to happen to Rianne, I would never forgive myself.
With my work (payroll processing) finally done, I took a few days leave to care for the most important people in my life - my mum & Rianne.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Baby steps
~Rianne's walking diary~
Feb 2010, at the hospital for the bi-annually checkup with the genetic specialist -
Dr Lai was the least impressed by Rianne's slow motor skills development when she found out Rianne has not even stood up for the very first time. Her comment was that she will have to refer Rianne to a therapist if she have not started walking by 18 months old.
Days before 16 Feb 2010,
We were trying some of the clothes on Rianne which Aunty Pooja had bought for her birthday. We made her stand up while checking herself through the dressing table mirror in my bedroom. She barely stood for a few minutes and her knees weakened..
End Feb to first week of March 2010,
Rianne's been standing everyday after her baths, when Granny finished dressing her. She would stand still, put her hands together and giggled smugly at her reflection from the mirror.
2nd week of March 2010,
My brother's friend got Rianne a toy ride, and she was so into it all day and night! She would keep bugging us to put her on the ride, and when she's on it, she'l hit the button where the sound of a train would come "toot, toot, toot.." Started to move herself all over the floor, by swaying her bottom left to right, right to left on the floor.
Week of 13 March 2010,
Rianne's baby cousin, Joelle came over to stay with her mummy as my brother-in-law was away on a business trip for 2 weeks. Both babies were fighting over everything, toys, attention and competing to stand. With my mum supporting her arms, Rianne was taking small steps in the living room.
3rd week of March 2010,
Rianne could now walk with someone supporting her arms, from the bedroom entrance to the living room! She was particularly happy to walk when I stood at a distance from her, and urged her to come to me. She would giggle and walk at the same time; especially when she knows that all eyes are on her at the shopping mall. Walking was like a breeze for Rianne in all the comfy shoes she own.
26 March 2010, at Kidz World in the Zoological Gardens - Rianne was just like all the other kids, playing at the water playground. She stood in the water and enjoyed having her feet soaked! The highlight came when she went down a slide gushing with water, FUN!
31 March 2010 and onwards, anticipating the day when we no longer need to hold Rianne's arms and she would walk like a big kid!! Till then, ciao!!
Feb 2010, at the hospital for the bi-annually checkup with the genetic specialist -
Dr Lai was the least impressed by Rianne's slow motor skills development when she found out Rianne has not even stood up for the very first time. Her comment was that she will have to refer Rianne to a therapist if she have not started walking by 18 months old.
Days before 16 Feb 2010,
We were trying some of the clothes on Rianne which Aunty Pooja had bought for her birthday. We made her stand up while checking herself through the dressing table mirror in my bedroom. She barely stood for a few minutes and her knees weakened..
End Feb to first week of March 2010,
Rianne's been standing everyday after her baths, when Granny finished dressing her. She would stand still, put her hands together and giggled smugly at her reflection from the mirror.
2nd week of March 2010,
My brother's friend got Rianne a toy ride, and she was so into it all day and night! She would keep bugging us to put her on the ride, and when she's on it, she'l hit the button where the sound of a train would come "toot, toot, toot.." Started to move herself all over the floor, by swaying her bottom left to right, right to left on the floor.
Week of 13 March 2010,
Rianne's baby cousin, Joelle came over to stay with her mummy as my brother-in-law was away on a business trip for 2 weeks. Both babies were fighting over everything, toys, attention and competing to stand. With my mum supporting her arms, Rianne was taking small steps in the living room.
3rd week of March 2010,
Rianne could now walk with someone supporting her arms, from the bedroom entrance to the living room! She was particularly happy to walk when I stood at a distance from her, and urged her to come to me. She would giggle and walk at the same time; especially when she knows that all eyes are on her at the shopping mall. Walking was like a breeze for Rianne in all the comfy shoes she own.
26 March 2010, at Kidz World in the Zoological Gardens - Rianne was just like all the other kids, playing at the water playground. She stood in the water and enjoyed having her feet soaked! The highlight came when she went down a slide gushing with water, FUN!
31 March 2010 and onwards, anticipating the day when we no longer need to hold Rianne's arms and she would walk like a big kid!! Till then, ciao!!
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