I am not lying, nor hallucinating.. I am very sure. But it may not be the same for the person who said what he said to me on Saturday morning.
I was very surprised to get the first text message from Mr K at 3.42am on Friday night. At first I just wished he had texted me by mistake. However when the message says "Are you Regina?", I knew it was not a mistake.
The subsequent messages from him were so unbelievable, so much so that I thought it was someone else who wrote them. I'd never imagine he actually confessed to me how much he was suffering after we broke off. He mentioned that he even lost 5kg since then! The next incredible thing he said was he really loved me and cared for me a lot, and that I was the kindest and well-mannered girlfriend he ever had in his life. In those few messages, he said he loved me several times which is just something he have never done before, during our 10 months together!
Of course those words were like music to my ears, and I almost fell right into the mouse-trap again! Like a mouse with its tail pinned down by the trap and all you can ever do, is pray hard that the trapper will change his mind and show sympathy onto you.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
~Twilight Romance~
I have not watched the movie 'Twilight', so I have absolute no clue about the story and how fascintating it is. I found out for myself tonight when it was showing on tv..
I have always hated the pale looking vampire, played by Robert Pattinson, and feel so incredible that thousands of girls are crazy over him! However, in the movie, he's just an innocent, kind-hearted vampire who can simply lose his head and his blood-sucking nature, for a human girl he fell in love with. His character touched my heart, as he tries his utmost to protect the girl from danger of other vampires; and most amazingly, from himself as well. Knowing that he will kill her if he lose control of his emotions and bodily desires, the pair was so much in love and not giving in to the call of temptation.
Their romance was nothing like the usual dating of boys and girls, as you can already guess the reason for it. Edward, the vampire played by Robert Pattinson, is of a high 'pedigree' (can't think of a better word! hahahaha..). He is talented, loves art and plays the piano to the girlfriend, Bella when they are together. The other lovey dovey thing they do on their dates out, is lying on big green grass fields, looking into each other's eyes until they both fall asleep in the arms of mother nature. I know this sounds like it can only happen in the movies, but I want to have that! Nothing can be more romantic and send a tingling chill down your heart when your beloved one lay beside you, look at you straight into the eyes and saying "I love you" without actually having to say it out loud.. if you know what I mean.
I am not hinting that what I have today is repulsive or not the least making me happy.. Just that I secretly wish my beloved is like Edward, and me like Bella, loving each other like everyday's the last day in the world.. =)
I have always hated the pale looking vampire, played by Robert Pattinson, and feel so incredible that thousands of girls are crazy over him! However, in the movie, he's just an innocent, kind-hearted vampire who can simply lose his head and his blood-sucking nature, for a human girl he fell in love with. His character touched my heart, as he tries his utmost to protect the girl from danger of other vampires; and most amazingly, from himself as well. Knowing that he will kill her if he lose control of his emotions and bodily desires, the pair was so much in love and not giving in to the call of temptation.
Their romance was nothing like the usual dating of boys and girls, as you can already guess the reason for it. Edward, the vampire played by Robert Pattinson, is of a high 'pedigree' (can't think of a better word! hahahaha..). He is talented, loves art and plays the piano to the girlfriend, Bella when they are together. The other lovey dovey thing they do on their dates out, is lying on big green grass fields, looking into each other's eyes until they both fall asleep in the arms of mother nature. I know this sounds like it can only happen in the movies, but I want to have that! Nothing can be more romantic and send a tingling chill down your heart when your beloved one lay beside you, look at you straight into the eyes and saying "I love you" without actually having to say it out loud.. if you know what I mean.
I am not hinting that what I have today is repulsive or not the least making me happy.. Just that I secretly wish my beloved is like Edward, and me like Bella, loving each other like everyday's the last day in the world.. =)
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam
As promised, I will be sharing my trip to Ho Chi Minh last April in this and the subsequent posts to come..
I had a really good travel deal flying into HCM on Jetstar, with zero airfare cost!!! Only payable was the airport taxes and fuel surcharge, which cost me $150 for a total of 7 days 6 nights. It was my first time to HCM, and needless to say, I did plenty of homework.
My pride was indefinitely the value-for-money hotel which I have booked through asiarooms.com at an amazing room rate! We stayed there for 7 days 6 nights, at USD 19 or SGD 23.75 equivalent per night. Located conveniently in District 1, 137 De Tham Street where the backpackers area is, Sunny Hotel on the outside looks just like the local budget hotel chain - Hotel 81.
We were given a room upgrade just because of the many days we were staying in their hotel. Simple decor, spacious, and with a tiny bit of muskiness in the furniture, the room was nothing to brag about; but we were more than satisfied.. especially on the following day, when we had our breakfast served in a little cozy area near the reception. It was nice and warm, the perfect starter for our first day in a foreign city.
The adventurous pair of us, would read from our iPhone maps, figure out locations and directions of where we want to go; and just start walking. We chanced upon this superb minced pork noodles place, which is walking distance from Sunny Hotel. The price of the noodles range from around VND 40,000 - 60,000 (equiv. SGD 6 - 8), and it comes with a big plate of vegetables which you can just garnish as you wish into your noodles. We basically ate the noodles every alternate day during the trip! You will understand why when you try it yourself!
Shopping was quite a treat as HCM has several day and night shopping markets. The most well-known would be Ben Thanh Market (day & night). Personally I think the day market, though very much like a shopper's paradise, is a little overpriced. I guess that is because of the number of tourists this market attracts. The market opens until only 6-ish in the evening, but fret not; the night market which is an open-air bazzar located just on the side roads outside the Ben Thanh Market will open from 6pm to 12am daily.
The stuff you can expect from these 2 markets are those "I Love Saigon" t-shirts, imitation sportswear like Nike, Adidas, etc, fake goods like bags and watches, and the Vietnamese souvenirs. There are quite a few stalls that sell really nice handmade accessories and the hair accessories for both adults & baby girls. It will do you more advantage if you buy in bulk quantity.
A tip when you are shopping at Ben Thanh, do not buy from the first stall you see something you fancy. Ask for the price and move on to check the same with the following stalls. It is not surprising when the same stuff can be sold at different prices, even the little coconuts from the mobile drink peddlers! You should not be paying more than VND 20,000 for it..
I had a really good travel deal flying into HCM on Jetstar, with zero airfare cost!!! Only payable was the airport taxes and fuel surcharge, which cost me $150 for a total of 7 days 6 nights. It was my first time to HCM, and needless to say, I did plenty of homework.
My pride was indefinitely the value-for-money hotel which I have booked through asiarooms.com at an amazing room rate! We stayed there for 7 days 6 nights, at USD 19 or SGD 23.75 equivalent per night. Located conveniently in District 1, 137 De Tham Street where the backpackers area is, Sunny Hotel on the outside looks just like the local budget hotel chain - Hotel 81.
We were given a room upgrade just because of the many days we were staying in their hotel. Simple decor, spacious, and with a tiny bit of muskiness in the furniture, the room was nothing to brag about; but we were more than satisfied.. especially on the following day, when we had our breakfast served in a little cozy area near the reception. It was nice and warm, the perfect starter for our first day in a foreign city.
The adventurous pair of us, would read from our iPhone maps, figure out locations and directions of where we want to go; and just start walking. We chanced upon this superb minced pork noodles place, which is walking distance from Sunny Hotel. The price of the noodles range from around VND 40,000 - 60,000 (equiv. SGD 6 - 8), and it comes with a big plate of vegetables which you can just garnish as you wish into your noodles. We basically ate the noodles every alternate day during the trip! You will understand why when you try it yourself!
Shopping was quite a treat as HCM has several day and night shopping markets. The most well-known would be Ben Thanh Market (day & night). Personally I think the day market, though very much like a shopper's paradise, is a little overpriced. I guess that is because of the number of tourists this market attracts. The market opens until only 6-ish in the evening, but fret not; the night market which is an open-air bazzar located just on the side roads outside the Ben Thanh Market will open from 6pm to 12am daily.
The stuff you can expect from these 2 markets are those "I Love Saigon" t-shirts, imitation sportswear like Nike, Adidas, etc, fake goods like bags and watches, and the Vietnamese souvenirs. There are quite a few stalls that sell really nice handmade accessories and the hair accessories for both adults & baby girls. It will do you more advantage if you buy in bulk quantity.
A tip when you are shopping at Ben Thanh, do not buy from the first stall you see something you fancy. Ask for the price and move on to check the same with the following stalls. It is not surprising when the same stuff can be sold at different prices, even the little coconuts from the mobile drink peddlers! You should not be paying more than VND 20,000 for it..
Saturday, May 28, 2011
My neglected darling
Sounds like I am an extremely bad mom right? Never my intention to be one, really...
Rianne's daddy has not for 1 day, given up the idea of having Rianne stay with him in the UK. I can totally comprehend why, and I wish to be able to grant him this chance especially after news of the demise of his dad came to me. I was actually feeling very compassionate towards daddy D when he texted me. His life has been way too tough on him.
However, sympathy aside, I need to ask myself the big question.. Will daddy D be capable and physically fit to take care of Rianne? Of course, he may be able to get someone to be the caregiver for Rianne. But will it be the best environment for Rianne to grow up in? Although I am not absolute certain that a single-parent environment with a workaholic mom, and an extremely shopaholic grandma aka the caregiver, here in SG will be the perfect environment for a growing toddler; but I will definitely try my best to give everything I can within my means for my precious darling.
Being out of touch of Facebook for a long time, means the latest pictures of Rianne have not been 'exposed'.. hahaha!! So, for you guys there.. yes, my ardent supporters of this blog.. please enjoy my naughty girl's supermodel shots! ;)
Rianne's daddy has not for 1 day, given up the idea of having Rianne stay with him in the UK. I can totally comprehend why, and I wish to be able to grant him this chance especially after news of the demise of his dad came to me. I was actually feeling very compassionate towards daddy D when he texted me. His life has been way too tough on him.
However, sympathy aside, I need to ask myself the big question.. Will daddy D be capable and physically fit to take care of Rianne? Of course, he may be able to get someone to be the caregiver for Rianne. But will it be the best environment for Rianne to grow up in? Although I am not absolute certain that a single-parent environment with a workaholic mom, and an extremely shopaholic grandma aka the caregiver, here in SG will be the perfect environment for a growing toddler; but I will definitely try my best to give everything I can within my means for my precious darling.
Being out of touch of Facebook for a long time, means the latest pictures of Rianne have not been 'exposed'.. hahaha!! So, for you guys there.. yes, my ardent supporters of this blog.. please enjoy my naughty girl's supermodel shots! ;)
Friday, May 27, 2011
Social Media dilemma
I have been thinking for a while since K broke up with me..
Should I reactivate my Facebook account which I so ungrudgingly closed because K blocked me for some reason? Should I place pictures of me & Rianne on my MSN again, as I have not done in a long time because K didn't like Rianne? Should I even be blogging about my newly found bliss, when it has been less than a month since my breakup with K?
All these form the social media dilemma that I am undergoing.. But beneath lies an even bigger dilemma which only me myself can provide the answer to it.
Come to think of it, I am no longer answerable to K, and neither are my actions accountable to him. I don't even have to spare a thought for him, as it is my life and happiness that I am truly pursuing now. If someone can treat me the way a boyfriend should be doing, then why the hesitation?! My heart is going to say "yes" to this sweet person who despite his own discomfort, made an effort to have dinner with me in nowhere near his place but mine instead. My mind will be set to follow as well, and will stop pushing his love for me away.
Should I reactivate my Facebook account which I so ungrudgingly closed because K blocked me for some reason? Should I place pictures of me & Rianne on my MSN again, as I have not done in a long time because K didn't like Rianne? Should I even be blogging about my newly found bliss, when it has been less than a month since my breakup with K?
All these form the social media dilemma that I am undergoing.. But beneath lies an even bigger dilemma which only me myself can provide the answer to it.
Come to think of it, I am no longer answerable to K, and neither are my actions accountable to him. I don't even have to spare a thought for him, as it is my life and happiness that I am truly pursuing now. If someone can treat me the way a boyfriend should be doing, then why the hesitation?! My heart is going to say "yes" to this sweet person who despite his own discomfort, made an effort to have dinner with me in nowhere near his place but mine instead. My mind will be set to follow as well, and will stop pushing his love for me away.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Emptiness and Bliss
Someone's display message on MSN today read "Empty feeling...".
It's kinda ironic actually, to hear that coming from a person who's forever independent, and unexpectedly the same guy who chose to be "empty".
I am not gloating, I really am not. He might jolly be feeling like this because his folks have came and left Singapore today, and that sense of emptiness suddenly shook him by surprise. The second wave of surprise hit me instead of him, when he wrote me an email to thank me for the hotel arrangement I made for his parents. He even told me that he and his family enjoyed themselves fully.
Good to know that.. at least I didn't screw up the accomodation arrangement and land myself in some verbal lashing.
Well, I did not want to appear like I'm all needy and ready anytime to return to his arms, if he were to ask. So, there was no reply from me at all. Not an email, nor a message on MSN. In fact if he's smart enough, he would be able to read between the lines of my MSN message and leave me completely alone. My message goes like this "It feels really nice to be called a distraction.", and a smiley emoticon at the end.
The cheeky person who said that, told me he decided he wants to be distracted.. Awwwwww, soooooo sweet isn't it? =) It's been a long time since I felt flattered, wanted and in control of a situation which I am pretty sure, is only to my favour. And this, is what I called bliss.
Finally I can taste BLISS. Sweet like sugar, and happy like never before.. :)
It's kinda ironic actually, to hear that coming from a person who's forever independent, and unexpectedly the same guy who chose to be "empty".
I am not gloating, I really am not. He might jolly be feeling like this because his folks have came and left Singapore today, and that sense of emptiness suddenly shook him by surprise. The second wave of surprise hit me instead of him, when he wrote me an email to thank me for the hotel arrangement I made for his parents. He even told me that he and his family enjoyed themselves fully.
Good to know that.. at least I didn't screw up the accomodation arrangement and land myself in some verbal lashing.
Well, I did not want to appear like I'm all needy and ready anytime to return to his arms, if he were to ask. So, there was no reply from me at all. Not an email, nor a message on MSN. In fact if he's smart enough, he would be able to read between the lines of my MSN message and leave me completely alone. My message goes like this "It feels really nice to be called a distraction.", and a smiley emoticon at the end.
The cheeky person who said that, told me he decided he wants to be distracted.. Awwwwww, soooooo sweet isn't it? =) It's been a long time since I felt flattered, wanted and in control of a situation which I am pretty sure, is only to my favour. And this, is what I called bliss.
Finally I can taste BLISS. Sweet like sugar, and happy like never before.. :)
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Rebound
The big bowl of black herbal jelly that is right in front of me now, reminds me of the silly person who told me this is made from the shell of a turtle.. *fainted...
You probably wonder, how can someone this innocent be the same nasty guy who broke my heart?? Unfortunately, it is a matter of fact. So much true that I am even suspecting, could this be a case of 'Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde'?!! Well, whatever the kind of personalities he may have; I should never allow myself to be ran over and kicked aside, like some kind of roadkill. So, move on now, Reggie!!
I am beginning to buy the philosphy of "When you shut a door, another one opens". It seems to be so for not just me, but my friend Jenn as well; which is just damn deserving for her finally! There's someone out there now, impressing me with his considerate, sensitive and super-ultra sweet persona! I can almost tell that he's ready to bare his heart to me, if I had asked him to.
This feels weird and certainly not the right time.. as honestly, I have not stopped thinking about MR PIG, as much as I want to.. I don't want to be on a rebound and hurt anyone in the process. It's not going to be fair to this nice guy, as he is only trying to be good to a girl.
You probably wonder, how can someone this innocent be the same nasty guy who broke my heart?? Unfortunately, it is a matter of fact. So much true that I am even suspecting, could this be a case of 'Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde'?!! Well, whatever the kind of personalities he may have; I should never allow myself to be ran over and kicked aside, like some kind of roadkill. So, move on now, Reggie!!
I am beginning to buy the philosphy of "When you shut a door, another one opens". It seems to be so for not just me, but my friend Jenn as well; which is just damn deserving for her finally! There's someone out there now, impressing me with his considerate, sensitive and super-ultra sweet persona! I can almost tell that he's ready to bare his heart to me, if I had asked him to.
This feels weird and certainly not the right time.. as honestly, I have not stopped thinking about MR PIG, as much as I want to.. I don't want to be on a rebound and hurt anyone in the process. It's not going to be fair to this nice guy, as he is only trying to be good to a girl.
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